Today is my Birthday

Today is my birthday. I'm 41 years old today. It is hard to believe that I'm this old. I wonder if I have done enough in my life to feel a sence of accomplishment or pride or if I'm still a work in progress. Maybe its a little of both.

I can still remember most of my Birthdays even though I never really had big parties. It's actually a bit amusing that I remember. I remember the roller skates I got when I was 11, the boogie board when I was 12. I remember a few Birthdays spent in New Mexico having water baloon fights with my brother and cousins. I remember the Birthday I had the day before my son was born.

I remember most if not all of them both good and bad. What I don't really remember is how I got this old. I guess I'm lucky in that I don't feel like a 41 year old. Even if I did I probably wouldn't know because I have no idea if that feels different than say 40 or 20. I do feel young at heart, I still love being here and I still feel and sometimes act like a kid. I guess if I refuse to grow up maybe I'll always feel young. I hope so.