Less than ideal

I have been living at my mom's house for the last few months. Previous to that I lived with Kathy in Clarksburg and before that we had an apartment in Carmichael. I find myself in my current living condition for many reasons which I'll spare the reader the details of. In many ways I am lucky just to have a roof over my head and I do appreciate having my mom to lean on for that so don't get me wrong when I say that my current living situation is less than ideal.

If I had the choice I'm possitive that my living arrangement would be quite different. I would love to live with Kathy again. In fact I miss that more than anything. We are working back to that point and hopefully we'll get there soon. Aside from that I would really like to live in a place where both my kids as well as Kathy's children could stay when we have them. A place where they are always welcome, where they feel as if they belong and which they enjoy to go to. This is also important to Kathy and I as between the both of us we've done a good job of living the life of Gypsy's or Nomads or some such thing for the last year. I feel now, this year would be a great time for us both to put some roots down.

Right now I know for a fact that I don't have that and I also feel that my children don't have that. My son sleeps on the couch at my mom's when he's with me and my daughter sleeps in her aunts room when she is gone at her boyfriends house or on a air mattress when she is here. I think it would be nice if they had a room with a bed. and a dresser to put their clothes in that is for them.

All I know is when they are with me they are less happy than they used to be and as a result I'm less happy as well. I need to get things settled, for myself, for kathy and for our children. I wish I didn't have to wait for things to get better. I wish I could just change things with a snap of the finger. But for now it is what it is. I plan on working to get things right and I believe I will do just that.

I guess maybe this should have been my resolution.