Christmas

I just returned from a quick trip to Disneyland with my kids. They are now 17 and 13 years old. The trip was great and we all had a great deal of fun. However, I cannot seem to feel a bit down as I miss how much fun my Christmases have been in the past. My kids are no longer little, I'm no longer married and my family is so is incredibly fractured. I miss the days of having a nice dinner with everyone around, opening gifts and having great conversation. But, most of all I miss being woken up early in the morning on Christmas day by young children raving over their gifts. I don't think I can get those Christmas days back. That's one of the reasons I took my kids to Disneyland this year. Maybe to set a different memory. It worked to some extent but I still miss the good old days. I am hoping in the years to come that I can establish my own residence and create holidays for my children and their children which can lead to the feelings I once had about Christmas. This year although it has been fun with my kids it does feel a bit empty.